new years day

before i write this i would like to highlight that no names are being given because im not that low to put it in here, beleive it or not.

new year = new starts, so thats what i figured i'd give myself. I want to start by saying sorry to anybody who needs an appologie off me. i want to wish everybody a good 2005 and hope it is alot better than it has started out. i want to quote Nick Slawicz at this point when he said to me :
'There's a theory that says things are only brave if you don't want to do them', it's from 'to kill a mockingbird' by harper lee. even though things ar hard, thye get better, and always will while you have support. i made a hard desicion, i know it's for the best, for all people involved and no matter what i still carre about that person, but i cannot carry on in that situation and yes i have given up, it may be weak, it maybe painfull, it may be stupid and dumb, it may be cruel, but it's for the best. I had a choice to make and i want that person to understand that i did it for them as much as me, i didn't have a good input on their life as much as they didn't on mine. i figured that it was better all round because we couldn't go n destroying each other anymore. so i want to lay down all my sorries here. decissions arent always easy and are definatly not nice, but when you have come to the end of the line whats the use in pretending?

Happy 2005 everybody, including unamed person, make it a good one, cause no-one else will do it for you.

Katie-Jane x