'You're like a ghost recently, where've you been?'

This blog won't mean much to anyone, but it means something to me so I'm going to write it anyway. I got a text saying the above, and it hit me how true it was. The truth is I've been no where and done nothing, just thought, for nearing 3 weeks, I think anyway. The above message shocked me into thinking more, which I think is backwards 'cause it shocked me into thinking about not thinking so much. God I'm confused. I know I'm selfish and should have made more time for the above, but the truth of it is, how do you tell someone you've grown apart enough to prefer sitting alone thinking over dragging your sorry self out to see them? That's the mood I'm in, if you know me, and know me well you'll know how much I detest being alone, so you know how utterly and extremely distant I am from someone when I'd prefer it to making time for them. This makes me a bad person. I guess me being like a ghost is a good thing for many, means they don't have to put up with me, and to others whom I am completely real too, I know a few of you want me not to exist anymore, so maybe we'd all be better off if I was a ghost, and not real, it'd make a lot of peoples lives a lot easier, and the above message would have some truth in it, I wouldn't have to make up some lame ass excuse about being busy recently, or having too much work, of even that I've been spending a lot of time with (insert random friend here). I'm figuring things would be a lot easier for everyone, myself included, if i ceased to exist anymore

Katie x