My appologies are all i have left.

I am so so so sorry Linzie, you know what state i'm in, i told you more than they know right before you said you didn't hate me, and then this happens. So i can understand if you tell them now, and i wouldn't blame you for hating me. I am so sorry for the way things have turned out, i know that being lied to is never the best thing, trust me, i was lied to quite alot about you, and i know it's not your fault, in fact this whole thing is mine.

I know you will never talk to me again, but all i can say is 'i'm sorry' i guess. I feel worse about this knowing you still cared, and wanted to help me, beleive me i feel more low and desperate than ever before, and you know all to well what this means.

Wow, even when one of the biggest secrets of my life mentally crushes someone, i still find it in me to lie. Why am i still alive?