Hello,
I should be doing my lit coursework, but i know that i won't. I'm deciding whether or not to. I should, but i would rather wallow.
My mum keeps asking me if i have accepted wolverhampton as my first choice on ucas, i guess i have no excuse now, they've changed my course to the one i'd prefer to do, they've changed it on ucas, and sent me a written confirmation. I've got no reason not to accept them now. Except than when i do i can't go back. I can't change my mind and i have to go there or no where, i'll be spending the next 3 years of my life in wolverhampton, and i won't be able to go anywhere else. I'll be far away from everyone that i wanna be near to. I'll be 500 miles away from Nick, who i love so damn much, when my parents move to austrailia i will be futher away from them, and my sister and my little brother who i love so much, Joanne will be in northhampton, James in York, Dom in India, Josh in cambridge, Katie in Lancaster. I don't care what they all say about still being around, the truth is they aren't going to be around, they are going to be moving on with their own lives forgetting i was a part of it and not remembering me except for the occasional text i'll get when they are bored and decide they want to text someone. I don't want that yet, i'm not ready for that yet, i want to carry on like this, doing my a levels, being happier, loving my friends and my boyfriend. But no, while everyone else moves on i'll be stuck crying in my bedroom thinking about loosing my family, my home and my boyfriend.
I'm just gonna miss it, you know?
Now i really need to stop getting down about this, and do some coursework before my brain explodes.
Katie x
Monday, April 03, 2006
Decisions, decisions.
Posted by Katie at 8:48 AM
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I'll act as the voice of experience here...it's not easy, believe me it isn't.
I wasn't an on campus person, but there's so many people in that exact same situation as you, and you'll get to know them really well and you'll find new people who will help you.
And your friends, your true friends, they never forget you...I was swamped with emails/texts/calls just to talk to me when I was down in Slough. You'll have so many people who are helping you out on all fronts. The hardest thing is the leaving, I cried myself rotten the time I said goodbye to everyone to go to university, but it gets easier, and you don't feel down for long because you are far too busy being thrust into it all.
You'll be fine, I assure you.
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