time.........

I have just backread all of Katie's blogs, and it's amazing how quickly time goes.

For example, i backread all the stuff that happened with me, nick and linzie, that was 6 months ago, it feels like last week sometimes.

When i was 13 i had this lovely boy friend called carl, He had beautiful eyes, bright blue, and was the cutest guy ever, he'd randomly text me in the middle of the night and tell me i was beautiful. I was 13, i didn't love him, but i felt something for him. Fact of the matter is it only lasted a month, and it felt like a lot more then, That was the happiest i'd been at the time, nothing had happened that had taught me that the world was anything but kind, september 2001, year 9. It felt like it lasted forever, but it was only a month, 1/204 of my life. Now i never talk to him, go figure, but that's not the point.

I've been with Nick for 7.5 months, that's 7.5/204 of my life, since october 16th 2005. And that doesn't feel like that long, it feels like i met him yesterday.

Time works in odd ways. I miss being at that stage in my life where it didn;t matter that time was going fast because you had enough of it left before anything major happened, now it's a case of every second i sit here, typing at 20 past one in the morning, is just counting down to that big thing that tips your life upside down.

It's all a countdown, it all comes to an end.