Please read to the end, Stick with it, For me.

It was you who picked the pieces up when i was a broken soul, glued me back together and returned to me what others stole.

You gathered my dreams in, When they all blew away and then tricked them back into me. You saved me when i was almost
dead.

I don't wanna hurt you, I don't wanna make you sway. Like i know i've done before i will not do it anymore.

I've always been a dreams. I've had my head up in the cloud. Now that i'm coming down, won't you be my solid ground?

This isn't aimed at anyone, I just like it.

It's nearly 2am and i can't sleep. I just wanted to wish you a very good night, and i hope the world gives you what you want, because it's the best feeling in the world. I think i am moving on, I think i am starting to not care. And it's good. I wanted to shout out to all my friends, Kim, Chris, Joe, Oliver, Nick, James, Rhodesy and Katie. For lifting me to my feet when the world gets to much to handle. I know i give you all shit, but i love you all more than you could know. You are my world. I know there is hope for you all, and i know there is love for you all, and not just from me. You're all stars, you shine above and brighter than the rest. I love my friends. Every single one of them. And it pains me to know that i'm leaving some of them behind in ten weeks. I've been concentrating so hard on going to uni and my friends that are going to uni, that i forgot the ones i was leaving behind, and even the ones that are moving away too, I'm proud to say i've known you all. And one day when i look back on this i hope i know you all still, if i don't i will be greatly pained. I know there is more to come in my life and more to come in yours. But i'm stuck in this moment.

It's my new found beleif in the future that is allowing me to finally move on and get over things. This doesn't mean i don't care, just that how i feel is changing. I'm always gonna love said person, but now it'll be in a different way. So what d'ya say? You know who you are. 'Friends we can be, hand in hand and together we'll touch the stars'? You mean too much to me for me to carry on this pointless trying to get you back. You mean the world to me, you're my best friend, you know me better than anyone else, you're the only person i feel safe to cry infront of, and the only one who can make me laugh as much as you do.

So, what do you say, Mister, Friends? Lets make the best of the time that it's going to be easy to see each other? Proper friends? None of my moody namby pamby ex girlfriend bullshit? Just like we were way by when everything was simple?

I hope my emotional tirade hasn't been completely fuelled by 'back home' by yellowcard. I know how i feel, no more confussion. Growing up time. I love my friends, even the ones who've only recently made the transision. I'm not going to hurt anymore, i've decided to make the change, grow up and move on. And that's why i am not ignoring certain mail that i received today, you don't need to know what it was about. I'm not going to pretend i don't feel the way i do, because i do feel it and it's real. But you know what. Screw it. There is life out there and i don't want to sit here and miss it.

I don't know what i was looking for this past month or so. And i've learnt now that i didn't find it, and so it's time to move on. But who cares? There's nothing wrong with stopping looking for who you are, and so i've stopped, for now atleast. I don't need to know WHO i am, I just need to have fun being it.

I am going to sleep now. Have fun fridays.