Dreading it

Unles you've been housebound since christmas you'll notice that Valentines day is comuing up. I know that it's a usless holiday made up by card companies etc etc blah blah but you cannot fight the fact that generally people in relationships secretly love this day, and people who aren't dead it.

I mean at first my main issue was that i would have no one to buy for or recieve from, but since i said that i have infact bought two cards, both for friends and i know i am getting one of Sara because we were both complaining to each other. But she has a boyfriend this year so she's likely to get to lots more. I don't even know where i am going with this but you know, it would be nice to get something or know i had someone somewhere thinking of me. I'm only saying things that other single girls feel but i guess it's just a stupid little thing.

Another thing i can't stand is how i look. Or rather how "sexy" women like this:




make me feel about myself. I mean i am not exactly pretty, i havn't got a face like Liv Tyler or my best friend Kim. And i'm chunky, i'm not exactly a size 8 and i'm tall and stupid looking and women like that plastered all over TV and magazine covers and the internet just makes me feel sick when i look in the mirror.

Well valentines day is going to suck and i feel sick for being repulsive and shit.