Every step that I take is another mistake to you, And every second I waste is more than I can take

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you


Numb vs Encore. I never thought i'd like a rap song, but when it's twinned with linkin park it's awesome. i do love them so. I fucking love Linkin Park :D

Right, so i guess it's time to start appologising.

I know that my friends need me, and i guess it's just unfortunate they all need me at once. Simply put yes they're problems might seem small to me, but to them they might be the most important thing in the world. I used to addopt the attitude that no problem was too small for it to warrant help, and i don't know what's happening to me. I guess i am just so bitter and synuical and depressed myself recently that i've lost the plot. Maybe not, but who knows. I'm just sorry i didn't see it sooner that i was pushing away friends in need through no fault of their own. I have been very bitter in my last blogs on this topic and i am sorry if people felt they can't come to me anymore. I do still want to be here for you all, but bav (therapist) tells me i have to take some time out every now and again before i get completely swamped. So if i'm not around for an hour or so please don't leave me for good, ok? Just know i am sorry for taking things out on you all, it's just me not being able to take things so well recently. I'll be better soon, i promise.

So what's going on recently. I might be going to Joe's later, to christen the new room, no not in that way pervy people.

so yeah my laptop is being taken for fixing on wednesday. urgh stupid thing breaking :( it's not fair, i love that laptop so. it has all my music on it.

What else have we got planned that i'm excited about... Ermmm thursday i'm seeing Nick, Saturday is Dom's stoner party, Saturday the 14th we hit the tiles, well cobbles, of rawtenstall and on monday the 16th i get 1500 pounds richer, oh and on the 21st the guys come down for this thingum and going to the planet. Also i got my phone reconnected so i can text and ring peoples again. it's wonderful!

So yeah, i'm gonna go draw and think n stuff.

goodbye.

ps: i'm trying to set up a drawing blog so you can all see my wonderfully bad pictures, i'll let you know about that soon.

Katie x