Warning, contains religious discussion.

Hello,

Well today i went to meet faye. After a disapointing pub lunch we went to wonder around the art gallery. This is what happens when you give me a wig, and an apple mac in the middle of a pop art exhibition:



Anyway. Today i have been feeling really low. So i as i spend most of my time walking around it (it's in the center of town, i don't just circle churches) i decided to go to church. And no i am trying to paint this image of me crawling to church on my hands and knees under the back breaking pressure of my sins and banging on a church door asking for freedom anbd forgivness. i just went for a look, and as silly as it sounds, a think. It really is a gorgeous church:



Anyway, i sat in there for a while. Thinking, but not sure who i was aiming it at. I'm not religious, not at all, but something felt, i don't know, Odd. I'm not pretending i've found religion, and it's not as though i actively avoided it, i just wasn't brought up with it, you know? It was kind of nice. I guess i never thought about faith before, or having a faith. I guess i believe in fate. but fate isn't a religion at all really, is it? I don't know, i think it'd be nice to believe in god and jesus and being forgiven for our sins. Have faith that some day god will save me and all that. And i got to thinking, religious people might have it right. When they've fallen so low they've got nothing else in the world, atleast they have their faith and no one can take that from them. So why are the rest of us running around abusing drugs and sleeping around and stabbing our friends in the backs etc etc etc? I don't know the answer, and it's not something i'm about to change. I think the point of this is to say i have a little more faith than i did yesterday, and who knows, maybe i will start to believe.

Katie x