Wish I was too dead to cry , My self-affliction fades .

So here we are again. trying to write a sodding blog in the light of everything that's going on at the moment. great.

well where to start. No i am not happy. No i don't care what people think and No, i'm not fussed whether people care or not. I also don't want to go to work, but i have to, go figure.

I keep having these recurring dreams about someone and they won't go away. and it's not like i want them. it's like a progressive story in another world inside my head. i wish i lived there, it's a lot better than here. it's lighter than here, here is dark and horrid. it's a lot better. but unfortunatly i have to stay here, working and living and breathing and surviving, it's not living at all really, it is just surviving.

god when do things get better? honestly! it's not even fair anymore. I'm going away now.

bye.