OK so here's the deal.
If you do not hear from me for a while i am still around. you have my mobile number if you need me. so i won't be gone. but if i seem to have disapeared from your life then it's for these reasons
I am in a terrible place in my life. I don't think i have ever been in such a terrible place to be honest. and i need space from quite a lot of people in my life. i need some head space. i need time to feel and get back to being stable, because i am particularly unstable. my head is a constant battle between rationality and irrationality. I don't expect anyone to understand, because i don't understand and misunderstanding seems to be the main human error that is corrupting my life at the moment. I know there will be adults reading this, and i know you dismis me and angst. but i'm not so please stop judging me. I have to do this before i do somethnig stupid. I need a break from almost everyone in my life so if i am gone for a while don't worry, i will probably come back. unless i achieve some kind of dream like happiness and then, well, i don't know how selfish i am. I don't know anythnig about myself anymore, or how much of me is still in here. Just don't blame me.
I might still blog, i don't know, i havn't decided. it would be a shame to let nearly 3 years go to waste...
Night x
Saturday, July 14, 2007
I can't decide whether you should live or die.
Posted by Katie at 4:42 PM
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2 comments:
Don't be gone too long, I'll miss you too much. x
I understand and try and appreciate that you're in a bad place and need time to work things out, and I have faith that you will.
I know how shit it is when you don't want to talk about stuff and you have everyone going "if you just talk about it, you'll feel better".
On the flip side though it takes pretty much everything I've got not to basically hammer down the internet to help you, because I can't help not worry, and not want to help and all that.
I know the best way to help is to not get in the way though.
Just promise you'll come back once you're in a place to do so,ok?
*hugs* go do what you need to do to be you again.
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