A year ago today.

Tomorrow is a day that will upset me.I don't expect anyone to know why. This last year i have learnt alot. I have gained alot, and lost alot. But i'm still here, so for the people who care; hurrah to you. I'm not exactly thrilled about it myself.

I've had some of the best times of my life, some of the worst. I've found friends in people that i never thought i would, i've found enemies in the people i trusted most, I've made mistakes; I've trusted. I've given my heart, and lost it. I've lost friends, and got them back. I've learnt that my friends have an exceptional strength, I've learnt that they carry me. I've lost my ability to walk with my head held high, well higher than it is now. I've learnt to notice when there's a lot of life in people. I've found hurt all over again. I've breathed, I didn't lose that. I've learnt that when the man delivering your chinese looks at you like a smelly tramp that it's time to shower. I've lost myself. I've lost my home. I've learnt that no matter what happens i will always have someone to give me a hug and tell me it's all going to be ok, I've lost the ability to believe people when they say that. I lost the ability to run from my problems, I've found someone to drop them on me from a great height. But most of all i've learnt that no matter what i do, nothing gets better tomorrow, nothing goes away.

Good luck to you people, make it anywhere, make it anything, but make it good. I'll try and stay beside you, but sometimes we all get lost in the noise that is our life. I wish i could mute mine.

That's all.