In this farewell, There’s no blood, There’s no alibi. ‘Cause I’ve drawn regret, From the truth, Of a thousand lies.

lyrics - Linkin Park Lyrics

Hello,

I am back to mope. that up there are linkin parks new song lyrics to their new song 'what i've done' from their new album which shall be out in may. Totally stoked.

Ok so i guess i should probably talk about something. I have a friend. We've been great friends for nearly eight years now. My entire adult life i've been closer than close with this girl. I don't know anyone who knows me as well and yet not at all all at the same time. Sometimes i feel like no one could know me as well as her, and other times i thinks he's been walking around with her eyes shut the last eight years. We come as a pear, we share everything, with exceptions of course. It's always invite emma (that's not her name, ) and kate to such and such.

I don't know why i feel this way, she never does anything wrong, i know that's probably half of the problem. she is perfect, flawless, gorgeous, pretty, funny, witty, intelligent, economical, has common sense, lovely family life, good relationship with all her friends, my friends, everyone's friends. She has a lovely boyfriend, she's a perfect girlfriend with a perfect boyfriend, She's sane, she's blonde, she has amazing legs, she is just perfect, ten times perfect. and ten million times more perfect than me.

I have always felt insignificant, in her shadow, not as good, inferior, shit and lame compared to her. She always had the answers and the friends and the grades and last night i just looked at her and it makes me hate myself. She's everything i want to be, i'd be happy, i'd be perfect. She's got everything everyone could ever want. In the rythm on friday she was dancing with me and everyone was looking at her because she has these amazing hips that move like fucking shakira. I can't handle it anymore and it's making me resent her when she's done nothing wrong, but her doing nothing wrong just makes her more perfect and me more fat ugly stupid and fucking wrong. And i can't talk to anyone about it cause they just tell me to stop it or shut up and i can't help but feel shit, shit and lame and wrong and shit and shitter and the shittiest i have felt in a long time because she's so god damn fucking wonderful. And i thinks she's wonderful, like the rest of them.

Out x