I don't know how i got this way, i know it's no alright, so i'm breaking the habit tonight.

And onto other things. Well i watched doctor who last night, it was rather good i think. I love david tennant, like capitally love him and the thought of doctor who on saturday makes me totally stoked :D I do adore it so.

On the matter of my parents. We might have sold the house. It's apparently under offer which makes me really sad. So if i am snappy or depressed recently that's why. My dad is a cunt. yes i said the c word. I do not like him at all and he's just a horrible fungus of a man drinking his way into his fifties and shouting obsenities of his kids. He's the most over critical, over bearing, argumentative man alive. If i am ever like him i'll kill myself, no change there then. My mother isn't quite as bad but she's not perfect. but her theory off why jess can't come down on the 21st for our night at the planet is that we should wait until jess is 18 and that jess should go out with one of her ex's to make oli think twice. my god that woman bums my sister. The fact remains, this is my home and when it's gone and when they've gone i won't have one. I just want someone to say 'here, your home is always with me' but i know none of my friends are in a position to do that, it's just hard, you know? I'm 18, i'm not ready to be pushed into a world where i have to live and provide for myself. I just want to know i have somewhere i know to cuddle up in bed when things go to shit and i need to go home. But i won't have that soon, so people will have to forgive me for being emotional.

On another note this is why i never ask my sister to buy me things. I am skint, i tell her to tell mum to pick me up some tampons, what do i get? a jumbo pack so now i owe my mum a fiver instead of one pound fifty. honestly. I suppose i should be grateful.

Well what now, i'm going to joe's tonight, movies, and drinks, and friends and things.

Right, gonna go.

Katie.