so you say the present is just a pleasant interuption to the past

Hey,

So yeah well i went to the doctors to take about these pills. told him the side effects i'd been having and he doubled my dosage. So now my nightmares will get worse and i won't be able to sleep. my hair might start falling out again he said and then it's likely i'll get stomach cramps, poor digestion and yellowing of the skin too. Great. I wouldn't mind usually but all this on top of working ridiculously early hours a lot of the time doesn't help. I guess i'm just kind of feeling in a rut about it all. I have 4 months of this, sore feet, tired eyes, hating my job and hating getting up, hating going to sleep i know it's nothing to complain about compared to some people but come on, this is stupid. things that are meant to make me better seem to make me ten times worse. how does being a vomity, psychopathic, bald simpson help anything really? Plus the fact that i'm not meant to drink AT ALL. or allowed to in take any substances which may allter my brain. after speaking with my docotr he said if i don't take the pill at the same time i am drinking i am allowed to have enough to be mildy drunk but under NO CIRCUMSTANCES am i allowed to be legless. It blows so now not only am i going to be vomity, psychopathic, bald simpson but i can't even drink to help the annoyance of it all. My god i am fed up. I am knackered and tomorrow on my day off i am baby sitting all day.

Good god i am tired.

I am going now.

Bye x