Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough? You make me stay when I should not? Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me?

Hey,

Ok i am going to write an acctual blog.

So where to start, I am trying to give up alcohol. But i am failing. And smoking. i mean i don't smoke like proper smoke, just when i go out and when i'm stressed but i need to stop. but for examlpe in the pub tonight, after being there an hour i had 2 double vodka and cokes and 3 cigerettes. someone stop me, please. It's not like i have an addiction, it's just since i discovered i can get twatted and still take my pills and not die i've not reason to stop. besides the constant hangover and the feeling of a need to get pissed if i have not done for a week. I have been drinking a lot since i was about 14/15. so it's a long time really, for a short life. Plus last friday when i went out, got pissed, smoked, and danced and sung i came home feeling like i'd swallowed a badger, a very angry badger, and i still can't talk proper yet. I dunno. I also need to stop swearing.

Yeah so onto why last night was so good. Work just is when Tom's supervising. He's so normal n lovely, i really like him. We had an interesting incounter with some boxes yesterday. it involved being inside them and running into each other. i didn't blog about it cause i was too miserable then.

well on that note, i'm not exactly happy at the moment. i had this terrible dream and things so now i have decided i can never sleep again. i am on coffee two now and it's twenty to eleven, i should never have given it up.

Ok gonna go watch "tourchwood" (read down if you don't understand)

katie x